What's really going on backstage ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Almost doesn't count S: do you know how close I was to telling you to go to hell never speak to me again??? Me: Ouch, When? S: A Few days ago. Me: Wow, that's what you were gonna tell me. Dang. S: Yeah Me: Why didn't you? That's pretty harsh S: I still don't like you that much but I'm over for the most part, I really don't know I think I should talk to you till I calm down a bit Me: I don't understand, what did you want me to do have an affair with u? S: plus it was partly my fault I can't blame you for everything Me: I'm sorry you're feeling bad, every day since you got married I have to pick myself up and tell myself it's gonna be ok. Every day is a fight with myself because you don't know how BADLY I still want you! I get mad but I realize me getting mad isn't going to change anything. S: I almost told my wife I was in love with you and that she has a choice to do whatever she wants to do. Me: Ugh! You kill me with those words "My wife" S:Yeah well that's how serious I was about you and here you are coming just shrug it off like it was nothing. Me: I didn't shrug it off, I have to pray and cry about it all the time. I love you! But there really isn't anything I can do when you decided to make her the one and not me. S: Not you what? Me: Not me as your wife, what did she do give you an ultimatum or something, Marry her of get out? S: I'm just telling you that's just the way I felt. But it's all good now, I've come to grips that it's over completely. but I really really really wanted to give us one good shot at something. Me: I am just a small human, I can't win against God, I've been fighting with God over the last 3 years. This IS hard for me. S: What's done is done, you owe me no explanations. - 2013-05-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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