What's really going on backstage ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The transition to so-called friendship Me: I'll try not to be negative but's just hard not to be when I know what I went through as a result of that decision you made S: I hear ya, I just need you to be my friend Me: yeah can be hard to just be neutral when it comes to you, it's either love or hate! LOL S: I know but will u try Me: give me some time, still hearing you say 'my wife' makes my skin crawl. S: LOL I will, so what's on your mind Me: just trying to get myself back on track after losing myself to the whirlwind that was (our names mixed together). LOL S: Glad to hear that Me: Yeah I don't know why I am such an emotional person, some people think I am hard but it's only a protective shell because I am so soft S: Thanks for listening, I know it's hard and awkward at times but I just really need someone to talk to and you're the perfect person, thanks for being a friend. Me: Sure I am still here for you punk and I am proud of you for not getting that girls number at the concert S: It was hard she was really cute and sexy Me: Seriously? Did you have to say that last line? Have MERCY! Sheesh S: What??? Me: Nothin S: Oh I know, well ur my friend so you have to deal with the good and the bad... M: Fine, thanks for being so considerate S: I will be more considerate fo you feelings. My bad, please don't think I told you things because it has anything to do with you because it really don't I just need to get back to my old ways...LOL Me: I don't think it has anything to do with me but dang, it hasn't been that long since we were all cupcakey, you really think I want to hear how you think this girl is cute and sexy. Well I don't and yes it does remind me of your old ways. S: Ok, I'll remember that, I kept your face pictures but I deleted the sexy one Me: Wow you did? After all that whining> LOL S: Yeah I have to discipline myself to get you all out of my system, If I keep them then I'll just want you and I don't want to want you anymore Me: Well I want to be able to conversate with you without getting so Emo, uGH! I Can't help how things affect me. S: we'll get there Me: I'll help you S: That was why I knew I couldnt' be with you in the past bc if you ever cheated on me> I would've been demolished S: Well you never have to worry about that Me: I'm just too sensitive when it comes to you S: Well stop Me: With other people I can control it, but with you it takes over me and I either wanna cry or lash out S: all that will soon be gone Me: well just remember I am genuine and honest in what I say and take also your words the same S: I am too Me: I forced you? well actually you forced yourself when you got married as if it's some light thing & Not professing forever. I didn't want to bring it up again but seeing as how you're sayin I was the one that forced you, I kinda had to. S: Okay I get it and I will not bring that up again Me: Well just like you said I can't predict what you would've cheated, you couldn't predict that we wouldn't have been able to be together. K. SO how about we leave it at that. S: Okay I agree - 2013-05-22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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